Nina's Story

In **** I got diagnosed with GAD (generalised anxiety disorder) I started getting extreme anxiety at work it got so bad I was having 2-3 panic attacks a day at work and got signed off for a year and then ended up having to leave my job because of it.

I’ve not had an easy life to be honest..

My dad was an alcoholic and had to witness things no child should ever have to. My dad used to beat my mum when he was very drunk. I remember standing at our lounge door (must have been 4 or 5) with my older sister screaming at him telling him to stop whilst he had my mum bent over our dining room table hitting her in the face. I still have a relationship with my dad but I know this has been one of the reasons why I’m now having to face this anxiety.

** years ago I was with a guy who was a lot older than me who was a heavy drinker and eventually ended up being physically and mentally abusive to me. I remember feeling petrified. I felt like I couldn’t get away or I didn’t have no way out! I ended up having a miscarriage. I was crying one night due to loosing a baby and all he did was just push me to the floor kicking me hitting me and telling me to shut up! He also pushed me down the stairs!

I’m currently in a relationship who I’ve been with now for *** years. Everything was amazing but as soon as my anxiety started it’s just gradually gone down hill. I don’t know whether he just doesn’t understand it or he just chooses to not show me support! I don’t want to have sex with him, my confidence is gone, my self esteem has gone and I don’t want to go out anywhere all I want to do is be at home! All he seems to do is shout at me, tell me what to do try and control me! I just feel so lonely and feel I’m going through this battle alone! I’ve spoke to a few friends but no one really knows how I’m feeling. I just want my life back without this anxiety. I want to be able to go out have fun but this anxiety is just holding me back.

I’m ** and just feel my life is just driving by so fast!